Everyone expectation are too high . But for me .. i just wanted a small little things .
With that my life is complete . Complete with every certain things which i have lost before .






I'm lost ..
What should i do to the next page of the chapter ?

HI ~ headache D:
Not going sentosa . Thinking of staying at home all the way . But later going out with winie .
Don't know what to say le , byes ~

Hi ~
Today went school .. something bad is keep being molest by SEEYUXUAN !
Suppose to went home at 12.30 end up become 1+ almost 2 D:
Performance was nice, but too long .
Went back blgps . Have fun there ... Playing and running around , me was the most hyper one .
I have gotten the primary school feeling back ! Hahas . huimin carry my back ;x
And there to protect me from being molested by Yuxuan !
Heeh ~ Slack till 3+
Went home and get change ..
Went to boonlay market brought a packet of noodles for Bf .
Then up to (...)
Winie came .. Aft tt went jp . Was waiting for cab , but no cab .
Bus came ... me and winie run as quick as we can , at last we catch up :D
7-11 saw yutat and co's
Went mac and aft tt to bf house .
He was like keep repeating the same words . 'my 350'
LOL .

Hi ~

29-08-2010
Went swimming with sist at around 12plus ? Aft swimming went to jp to meet anson .
Walk walk walk ~ saw my korh korh , since nth to do i followed him .
Then he tell me go to safra .
LOL . With him around i don't even need to worry about money .
Not even a cent okay . LOL
Hands out , money come . Soo easy to earn right ? :D

30-08-2010
Aft sch went home . And out i go to mass .
Gotten a new sticky :D LOL
From afternoon till now , haven eat .
Mum's nagging -.-
i wonder what's wrong with her when i don't even want to eat .
Problematic ! -.-



Anyway thanks for the sticky :) i love youh .
Tomorrow , i promise :D

to : ...
Seriously with name please :)
I act one ? If people tell me youh help people kam lan jiao , i say that to youh , youh happy or not ? Obviously not right ? So , see with your own eyes please .
I use guys as back up ? Funny die .
Even if it was also my bro . So i don't think youh need to care about my family problem so much .
Youh don't even know who my back up is , so don't try to act smart in front of me :)

Back ~
WHERE SHOULD I GO ? D:

Hi , back .
Quarrel with mum ytd so i went to jurong west to stay . LOL .
Aft sch intend to go home .. but saw anson outside sch. So went jp .
Quite bored la .. but its okay... talking about th past . Hahas ~
Cheers for every little good things :D

Relationships between sister is very complicated isn't it ?
There's always someone who always try hard and pray for this relationships .
But too bad .. I'm not one of them . I've fall down once and decided just to let it go like that .
While what i wish doesn't come true . I've waited long enough and i think it's time for me to let go . I think and think .. there's so much trouble after this relationship starts .
Yeah , i know we have to go through up and down together .. But .. not that much .
And kindness to me is all fake , even if it is not fake .. you all make it feel so fake .
I feel that you all are using me , I dunno ?
I heard someone told me about the sister of your in the past left your ..
I finally understand why ..
After a lesson , still no changes has made .
Perseverance ? No one made an effort on it , so why should i ?

Hi :) i'm back . reached home at 5 D: Poor me .
Sch was not fine at all ! Had 2times of quarrel with teacher just now .
My test paper all fail D: oh gosh !
How ? D:
This few day keep hang out at mass ..
Quarrel starts today again . Between me and my mum .
See ! Sigh*
Good things always end in a blink of eyes .

Currently at jurong east .
Went to jp meet jaymien and qp . Winie went home .
Aft tt went boonlay ..
Meet up with andrew . Went up mass .. feel bored .
Went bl to eat with jaymien , qp and winnie .
These few day eat only 1 time . Just because of my gum D:
Going hao le , no worry .
Thanks to my big sister just now . but being insult by my bro D:

Hi ~ Currently at winie house .
Tonning here...
Hmm... Ytd winie and winnie went to th mass ..
Lost all money yesterday D: luckily winie are unable to snatch till my money . But 10bucks gone D:
Yesterday went to central .. brought sticky then waited for the botak anson and ther future botak andrew to come ;x
Reach-ed walk here and ther .. Nothing to do .
Went back kampong :)
Don't know where to go later on . No money D:
No life -'-

Hi .
Mood was down now . Currently at e-net , with anson n my sist . Ahbao is sooo kp here ! omg -.-
My mood was fucking fucking down .
I maybe smiling at youh , laughing at youh , doting youh , meeting youh ..
But inside my heart i'm not !
Treating your good might get you all go climb over my body -.-
Please ! I'm not dead .
I didn't give you all a word because I don't wan to spoil our relation ship . I mind , i know youh mind it too .
But please ! be more automatic a bit -.- i'm not your mother ._.


Thinking whether i should go back to my past or not .
Without keep talking , getting mad , laughing loudly .
But it's good too ..


Brought sticky , gum pain D:
Unable to eat D:
Sigh*
XUXIAOHUI , sun go central ;)
I acc u go , k ! :D
Anson , winnie and ah bao is so annoying . SHUT UP CAN?!

once again . I'm back . my fucking sister keep holding on to th comp and dun let me take it when i say i wanna do project . fucking fuck-ed up , didn't argue with her because i believe god has eye -.-
Dunno what her brain was used by which material .
Went find colin just now and he's treating me like his sister . LOL
Keep sayaang my headddd ~ ask me want eat or drink .
Like my father instead of brother . Hahas ~
Anw , he pang seh us but not bad la he go do things aft wards wanna come find me but i alr went home . Hahahahaha ~ retribution .



I miss them :(
Guess i will still be th one he will 1st think of :)
No one to take care of me and to pamper me anymore .
No one's gonna buy me chocolate milk tea :(
Hope he faster come out and make me laugh every single day .
Wondering how's he inside .
how's his sch ?
Colin say v.fast jiu will come out , hope so bahhx .
To another one ..
Thousand of words to say but i'm speechless and my mind are blank .
One word to describe "sorrow"

Back to blogging .
One sad things is sticky gone D:
Hor winie !? LOL
wanna do hw but that pui colin ask me go eat mac .
Hahaas.
Should i go ? or not ? hmms.

Hi ~
Currently at jurong east now . Going out soon . will be having my sticky today :)
Heard something happen , no worries . people change heart wont change .
2days later going to move house le .
Hope father will be following us to move . Although dislike is dislike but live so long le without th dislike feeling is quite awkward .

Let me post a long post today cause i don't feel like replying anyone in msn yet so -.-'''
Today went sch .. so early reach sch , dk what to do .
Called junern and co's faster come . They thought what happen so they rush .. Yet junern thought i will be alone less then 5min he reach and see other's with me . LOL
headed Back to sch...mt lesson was quite fun . Art lesson was a bit ridiculous for me and yuxuan .
We was painting a very nice and colourful painting and told teacher we should get 100 marks , RIGHT YUXUAN ?! LOL !
recess didn't eat as i was full . Aft sch meet my beloved sist ^^ So long nv see kerin le , she's becoming quieter . Don't know why . Let me say somethings when i was on my way home , 3rd time ! LOL .
went up th bus and it was crowded . Saw a seat and ofcourse i went over to seat (beside an old woman)
After 2minutes later ...
Old woman : Youh this year is it a lot "zai nan"?
Me: Er.. ya . (was wondering how come she know -.-)
Old woman : Your "zai nan" will end today .
Me: oh .
Old woman : Are you christine?
Me: (look at my whole body see got my name or not, but not even a letter) Ya .

Is it scary ? LOL ! Don't even see her or talk to her b4 . She still know i read bibble story b4 when i was young and she tell me to continue reading it -.-' keep asking me question . I so clever of course ans it la . LOL ! Deep impression of bibble book . She even know what was my attitude , style right ? LOL . But WINIE keep phui ! Sia la , don't understand me ! Hahas .
And jaymien cheong zhu lun ! that guy that youh say handsome is really fucking handsome , hor winie ? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas !!!
Oh ya , did my draft till half only D: no paper for me to do today !

Hi . This few days has been staying at jurong east . GG clementi tmr .
Went to jp just now and i'm like a princess ! LOL ! so many people wait for me , how fortunate am i youh see ? Hahas . Aft tt jaymien come .. Slack , chit chat and aft that off to cck . back to jp and here i am .
Winie Choo ! 8 letter guys hor ?! LOL !
See yuxuan ! Be more lady-like ! LOL !
Hahahahahahas ! :p

sorely disappointed

Dear diary ,

I was sitting near the window , wrestling with paper and pencil . I seriously don't even know what i was doing until i stop writing and start to roll my pencil up and down the slope of the desk-lid. I called Teddy while he lay on the bed day dreaming , but he seems to ignore me . I am ill temper so i shouted him again the second time . This time round , he climb off the bed and he walk stiffly over to me . I lift him up and put his on the desk . Teddy ask me what i wrote so far , i picked up my letter from the ground "Dear mummy , I love you and daddy and the sun is shining". Teddy claimed that it sounds fine but i don't think so and even if it sounds fine i don't have the courage to give it to her ! I don't think mummy loves me .. She never talk to me , care me and see me . I felt neglect ...

Hi ! back :)
Sleep at jurong east yesterday . No comp D:
Chit chat with huiling on phone :)
Morning went sch meet joey at 7eleven and she acc me to eat ! Hahas .
Uh.. skip other part :)
Sch was alright and i will be meeting jaymien or xh later on .
But xh always go home at 6 !
Marlboro black menthol <3

Hi ! i'm back again .
went jp meet up with winie .. then find sist heels but no more . So , went to temple .
At bus stop wait for angelina and joey to reach . Had a chat with joey and went in temple . Pray here and ther aft walk to jp .
All was like a xiao zhar bor . Took a few pict . Reach jp blah blah blah .. lazy to elaborate .
headed home ~

hii .
Ytd have too much things to say . Mood to throw .
And ! i've seriously cant forget what happen yesterday .
People change in second , minute and days but memories don't . This is how life are .
Soo ... arghs ! nvm -.-

its 11.56 now and i just awake . Feel that my head is so heavy and pain D:

Feel like sleeping again but i cant waste my day like this .

Hmms.. Mother took my charger to jurong east and now i have no charger to charge my phone . Using comp to charge , LOL ! Huiling ! i awake le :) but didn't msg youh coz i'm charging . Hmms.. I'm hungry ;x

Back . Let's hope she won't think too much .

Let's talk about today :) With qp , my sist , huiling and anson .

Qp's so fucking cute today . LOL ! while anson is th joker for the day . Huiling is th one who make peace .

My sist is th most cute too :) Me is th most crazy and not in th good mood at night .

My maid is talking about my ex . (run towards her)

Which ex ? she said th ex b4 which is th handsome guy . I said huh ? when ?

She said new year . Chey ( walk away)

"someone's gambling" I D U N L I K E
i dislike , i detest , i hate .

Next topic ! :D Watch treasure hunter , 14blades and 7days fall in love with youh ytd at bus on th way back to singapore :D It's nice but sadly watch 7days fall in love with youh till half they off my television ! Grr !

Shall end here ~ :D

Die sist told me to acc her till she play comp finish coz she's scary cat ;x

my favourite place is to be inside when its warm and loving :)

Guess th measurement in sch is sot sot ! grr ! I'm 155 okay ! that weibin is so short and claiming taller then me ， LOL

Hi . Imma back . Don't have th mood today .
Today went to blah blah blah and back to jp .
Nth to say and only one things to someone .


Yeahs ! its youh :
first thing to say , youh never failed to break my heart . This is what i wan to say .
Youh should know my pattern . Youh know something ? The one you should thanks is huiling .
This few days , giving me attitude . Your attitude sucks ttmzxc .
I don't know why , you had your reason i guess ? Accusing me , i hate it th most .
Youh didn't put it in heart but i did . because it's my name , my reputation and its my sistership problem . Youh won't know , because you always think that you are right . Keep giving in to youh and doting youh is not good either . Youh don't wanna tell me who ? its alright . But at last youh did said .. It's good . I've know th ans .. and as i said i won't do anything . I kept my words alright . I said all this because i care and i mind . Youh know my pattern then youh say , right ?
You cried , i didn't notice .. but i know . I'm touched ;') I first thought youh changed , but i'm wrong . Everyone makes mistake , i did , youh did , everyone did . It's not too late to turn back , seriously . It's your choice who you believed . i'm not sure whether what youh said is true or not , but i chose to believed . Nvm . its over...

Omg ! huiling claimed that 150gram of sweet is not enough for me to eat . LOL !
chill * let's talk into sist relationship problem .
Apart apart and apart . Don't youh all think this is how we are ? I've gone through lots of times , each and one of us is always like this ?
If youh think th outside world people is much much much better .. then go ahead .
But i know one day when you've recieve hurt from them .. blame your self for giving too much trust to them .. that day came and you will be back to us . Don't you think it's too late ? (i'm just stating th fact)

HI ! back from genting last night :) on my phone and receives lots of msg from huiling .
Took bus to genting .. it took us 7 hours . Watch movie in th bus for awhile and fall asleep . Reach genting around 4plus ? whether was fucking cool . Walk to find hotel and stayed in hotel highland . Went to sleep when i reach room . the next day wake around 10plus ? went to eat breakfast . Cost us about 200plus ? So much things for us to chose .
Aft eating intend to go outdoor park . Walk to ther was alr 4plus so went back hotel .
Brough this and that .. next day went to outdoor :) Played a few game then it rain .
But worth it we walk around here and ther exploring things . LOL ! Pict will be uploaded when i'm free :)

Last post

hi ~ omg , cant expect so many people cares for me .
LOL ! people out ther wish me good luck on my way ther and hope and i will forget all th unhappiness here , alright ? :)
Just now went to meet up with lexian . Acc her eat .. my sist came and went to 503 alil .
She brought me shirt! Hahas ! love die her luhs ~
hmms.. around 7 receive text from my mum and headed home . They are busy packing right now .. While me updating my blog :)
I dun like to pack here and ther , do tis n that so.. everything leave to my mum . At least i take my clothes give her . The rest she pack ^^ Hahas !
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I'm happy , really happy . But something's gone...

Currently watching ip man 2 . Again ._.

Boy , glad that youh still replying my msges .

I've finally understand .. why people surround me said that i'm simple , innocent , foolish and stupid . Because i once don't have th chance to know how th world was . But now .. i've learn . It's not good ! I learn and see lots and lots of things that i've never seen b4 . No wonder th world become like this -.-' it's so fuck-ed up ! 6 months for me to go through .. i first thought that it's quite easy .. but when it reach 2p.m i don't find it anymore . I find it hard and miserable .. But still life has to go on..
Test from god ? Hahas ! LMAO -.-' because i'm too "HAPPY"
That's just one things .. one simple things to request . that is (...)
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back ~ Going genting later on at night .
Shag shag shag ~
won't be using comp now a days . so when i come back i will post it and make it alive back . okays ? Byes

Hi , back to blogging :)
I'm at lexian's house ! It has been a few days ago since i met her .
LOL !
Went sch in the morning , yeah .. soo soo .
Jun ern says i don't dare to write what he says . And btw just now he said "MY COCK EVERY DAY STEAM" LOL ! hahas .
making him embarrass . -'- him upside down .
He's like a small kid ... snatching sweets in class with me . From here everyone can tell what time of guys he is , don't you ? LOL
National days coming , don't feel like attending sch .. but yuxuan told me to come . She say without me seeing her performance she will fall down .
Omg ~
Today is alr th 4th of august . Less then 24 hour left ....
Anw , 6of august i might go to genting .
DOn't miss me uhs :)

hi back ~ :)

Sch is fine . Wont be talking much :) let th pict do th talking .

Off to meet xh now :) Byes

Guess xh's coming to my blog , grabbing me & her pict .
She keep complaining that i didn't upload th pict where me and her take .
THere ! one pict only ;x LOL ! actually got 4 to 5 i guess ? but i'm lazy , bear with it okay , my dearestttt XIAO HUI ! Hahas ~

HI ! lol , too bored .. just have to upload more pict :)

Hmms.. Finally , i found myself a bit more smarter then b4 . As long as i concentrate and put my heart in it , i can do it ! ^^

I change my blog songs all by myself , without my sist helping . I'm much more independent right ? Round of applause ! :DD Hahas ! What i wanna say here is : Friend is the best give that god given me , through up and down , dislike or like .. i still love them :) Don't despide having too much friends . Because friends is one of the best things in my life :)

Xiaohui & me [L]

Winie&me

Hi :) Finally , such a long time since i last upload any pict , right ;) So hot !

hahas . I'm waiting for some one to come and massage me ^^

Oh ya , huling ytd told me tt she's gonna learn from me one of my action i say which ? She claim that everytime i'm talking and nobody's listening i will tend to slam th table , everyone will shock and turn around looking at me by then . Hahas ! Wink*

Will try to upload more pict , ton and thousand of pict that i've nt been uploading ;x

HI ~ back to posting .
Currently at bl arcade wearing sch u with anson .
Sch day was bored . Didn't have th mood to be as hyper like everyday i'm in sch .
Weather is hot ! People's getting sick easily . Hor ?
p.e>home.e>recess>eng>hist>lit>reading>here i am ^^
Reading period was quite interesting :) Music test gotten 4/10 D:
Hist: 8/25
Few more marks to pass . Ofcourseeeee ! so hard how to ? sotplug !
Read a sec story book given by yuxuan ! LOL ! dun understand th words at all , yuxuan is ther explaining . She is soooo "BIAN TAI" hahas~
While junern ... shouted "MY COCK STEAM LIAO LARHS !"
Pervert-er ! Hahas . DOn't be shy aft your read this alright :)
I'm hungry , felt with no money . Shall tell anson "i'm hungry , later on" ^^
Clever isn't it ? Ahwang and dk which guy is sooo interested of what i'm writing . Th two of them today nv eat medicine , wire nt connected . Sotplug ! LOL !!

Grr ! pekchek to upload pict . Waited for so long till now not even one ! stupid comp -.-

Okay ! let's get back to th topic i wann to talk about , alright ?! :D

awake at 9plus , wonder why it's so early . Weather was fucking cold . Receive call from lexian and then huiling . Prepared till around 1plus ? i know its long . LOL ! i was taking my sweet time . I know th feeling of waiting for someone , pekchek ! :@ throw temper at either huiling or winie i guess? LOL ! soo sorry ;x Hmms.. aft winie and huiling came , decided to go temple . Yeah , it's good . From now onwards ! Sat = town , Sun = temple :) Clear all sin okay ! Hahas .

Went ther pray here and ther . Each time i pray there always be someone who i always worry about . Set my mind free ! :)

It's been so long i didn't pray . Aft th 1st temple , move on to th other temple . total = 2temple . Waste money on those but it is worthy :)

Brought "ping an fu" :)) Wuxim hors ? but th other one was nt for family but someone :)

Pray here and ther .. quite fun :) Hahas .

Hope to find winie's phone soon .

Curse the ppl who take won't die easily . Being tortured and die terribly :)

Aft that went to pioneer mall , slack here and ther .
Looks boring ? But it's fun ! as long th forever 5 is there .. it always be th most memoriable time for me :) Touched* ? Hahas !
Shall end here ~
Self-reflect should be done when u go in okay ? :) If youh think its youh who i'm talking about , then it's youh ! :D